The Holidays will be Bitter AND Sweet this year :-)

When we brought Sophia home from the hospital in March it was still cold outside. It was a sad time, having been told that she wasn't going to live very long. I will always remember on the day we brought her home, as I stepped onto the driveway, how the cold air represented my feelings :-(

Warm weather brought time spent outside and sunshine on our faces :-) It was a lovely summer to make memories with Sophe :-) I will always cherish the pictures :-)

As the weather started to cool off again I began to feel anxious. Oh no, what if she never sees another summer? Did we spend enough time outside?

But when I opened my Halloween box last weekend I began to feel excited about the holidays :-) I realized my favorite holidays are Halloween and Christmas and this year we get to spend them with Sophie! I will enjoy showing our little angel some of my favorite earthly traditions :-)

As I was unpacking Halloween I came across the costumes I had bought for the kids last year.
When I was pregnant with her.
When I opened the box and saw the cute duck costume I hesitated for a minute. My heart strained a little as I remembered how excitedly I had pictured my little girl on halloween this year. She would have been sitting up in a stroller....more vocal....reaching....maybe even waving goodbye as we turn away from each door. Then my heart ached as I thought....this might be the only costume she ever wears. Should I choose something else? Is a duck good enough? I lay the costume next to her :-) It IS good enough. She's going to be the cutest duck ever!

Today....

Laying on the grass in the backyard

Sophie loves to look up at the sky