Wednesday, June 12, 2019

Picture catch up

It's been a while since I caught up on pictures. In no particular order and hopefully none of these are doubles ;-)

Easter...



Kite Festival...


Snuggling...


Mothers Day...

Family Night...


Hiking...
Sheeps Bridge...


New Harmony...




Girls Trip (notice our new addition, second from the left! That's Kara, Mason's fiance!!!)

Sunset from our balcony...

Snuggling with Daddy...

New Car Seat!!! She's FINALLY long enough to sit reclined without folding in half! I can finally ditch the truck!!!

Max's preschool graduation (Kara again!!)

Therapy...

Watching TV with Dad...

Cousins...

Friends...

More cousins...

Swimming...

Being Pretty...

Valentine's Day...


(that's supposed to be a heart shaped pizza ;-)

Sledding...


More snuggling...

Wearing our PCH support shirts (notice mine is dragonfly)...

Mom and Dad actually went to a movie ;-)

Veyo Park...


Chad Ranch Wall. Since we moved to Cedar, I have had this interest in the Chadburn side of my family. I've since learned that my 3rd Great Grandpa and Grandma met here :-) This wall is the last remaining piece of Henry Chadburn's hotel. It was a stage stop in Veyo between Enterprise and St. George. 


More snuggles...



Night out with friends...

Big Sis doing Little Sis's hair...

Mason's birthday...

Trampoline (reminds me SO much of my childhood)

Pretty Hair...

Bubble Machine...

and More snuggles...


Saturday, June 1, 2019

Would I Do It Again? (belly laughing video)

Recent journal entry:

"Rocking my baby to sleep tonight. Singing her lullaby and looking up at the picture of the day she was first born. I wonder if, if I knew the end of the story, would I want to do the beginning again? I feel if I could go back to the beginning today, I wouldn't spend so much of her babyhood grieving. If I knew how much progress she would make and how she would smile and laugh every day."

Reflecting on this journal entry this morning because yesterday Sophia gave us her strongest laugh to date! Max and I were playing sorry and she started to crack up anytime I shuffled the cards! Seriously, she was busting a gut!  Such a magical sound! Months ago, I was so grateful that she had those couple of gelastic seizures, because I had the opportunity to hear her deep belly laugh. And I felt so blessed to have that ONE moment. Now  I have captured her real belly laugh and I'll be able to listen to it for the rest of my life! I feel so blessed!

Once again, from the girl who wasn't even supposed to smile...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T5qcSFxeJyo

Don't mind my desperate begging of Max to help me get it on camera ;-) I wanted to catch her face on video SO bad (as you can tell ;-) He did help, but naturally it wasn't quite as strong ;-)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7UmxrVfb-KY


Tuesday, April 16, 2019

Going home again!!

Both times we have left Primary Children's, we leave with tools that help us keep her out of the hospital for longer periods of time. They are blessings in disguise. Last time we left with the bi-pap. This time we are leaving with the g-j tube.

Here's how we hope the g-j will increase Sophie's quality and longevity. She has had aspiration pnemonia 6 times in 10 months. (twice she's been hospitalized). So, here's how that happens:

1. She gets the common cold
2. She has a soft gag reflex on account of never eating orally. This causes her to retch, from the post nasal drip, or when she coughs.
3. The retching causes her to throw up.
4. She then breathes IN her throw up (that's aspiration)... because her suck, swallow, breathe reflex is underdeveloped (which is the reason she's tube fed).
5. Then she gets aspiration pnemonia :-(

NOW she has a feeding tube that has TWO options. We can feed her stomach ... OR if she gets sick and begins retching, we can bypass her stomach and feed straight to her intestine. Leaving her stomach empty so that she cannot throw up and aspirate on formula.

This special type of tube, call the GJ tube, has to be placed in the radiology department at Primary's. And it has to be re-placed every 4 months.

In St. George we'd always been told she would need to be put under for this, as she needs to lie very still. So we've never done it, bc with her small brainstem, she has a higher chance of not coming out of anesthesia. we didn't want to take that risk three times a year.

BUT!!! There was an experienced radiology tech there, who said that HE could do it without putting her under! We are so excited and grateful for another blessing in disguise.

It is hard being in the hospital for 9 days. But there is so much to be grateful for. The Ronald McDonald House is a lovely place to stay. Jason brought Michael and Sarah up on Friday and we've been finding fun things to do every day, in between visiting Sophie ;-)
Probably the hardest thing has been missing Max who stayed with Grandma and Grandpa. But we're very hopeful that this g-j tube will keep her healthy for longer periods of time, so in a roundabout way it's benefiting him as well.
Church at the Primary Children's Branch was affirming. Just being around other special needs parents. And parents of terminally ill children. The truths we cling to are simple. The Lord has a plan for each of us. There is life after this. We will be together again. It is only separation. We just have to trust Him.

Sophie feeling better...

toured the conference center ...

the planetarium...



View from the hospital breezway...

Smiling that Dad is here...

The zoo...







Hanging at the Ronald McDonald House...



Visitors...
(to my in-laws I apologize that I didn't take your picture!)




 Michael and Sarah when they arrived

On our way home now!!


Big thank you to Mom and Steve for taking Max for 9 days.
Thank you Ben and Kaila for having us over for a family dinner, your timing was perfect.
Thank you Holly for coming over and trying to visit. I'm so sorry I'm such a space cadet 😆
Thank you everyone for all the texts and offering to help. It's so nice to know we have people that are there for us. Even when we tried to downplay how serious it was ;-)


Wednesday, April 10, 2019

Bypassing her stomach.

Sophia is still requiring a lot of breathing support. She hasn't been eating because she's been vomiting, which is not safe with that big mask on here face. We were hoping by today she wouldn't need it anymore, but she still does, and she can't go any longer without eating. So we are going to take her feeding tube past her stomach, and go straight for the intestines. This way we can get her some nutrition but she won't have anything in her stomach to throw up.

The good news is she has been smiling a little today and she's been awake more which is always an indication to us that she's feeling better. So who knows maybe tomorrow will be an entirely different kind of day!

Thank you everyone for everything :-)

Sophia today..


If you can Tell She's actually smiling a little underneath the mask :-)

Monday, April 8, 2019

Primary Children's Again

Sophia was life-flighted to Primary Children's last night. She was struggling to breathe and her BiPAP wasn't helping because she was breathing through her mouth. So we had to come up here and get the astronaut mask :-) She's much better now with the breathing support. It's aspiration pneumonia again. It began with a common cold, again. We are anticipating a shorter hospital stay this time. We are tired, but grateful, and hope to see her smile again soon ☺️