Heavenly Father answers prayers, and old story I haven't had time to tell

 About a month ago I had a couple of experiences, with moms that I met, who who had lost children. These moms were strangers to me, and I won't likely ever see them again.

I'd like to say that these were good experiences but they weren't. These moms were not doing so good. And although my heart broke for them, meeting them also got me a little worried. What if I end up like them? Bitter and scared and questioning God? Would that be me?

I reached out through text, to a couple of friends who have lost children. They gave me gospel centered encouragement and the things they said really helped me. They helped me hang on to the hope that I can do this.

But I still wanted to see somebody. I wanted to look into the eyes of a mother whose lost a child and see the Light of Christ. I was praying for help. And wouldn't you know, it happened at Walmart again!

I was in the checkout line and in front of me there was very kind looking LDS lady. She smiled at me and asked me about Sophia. Somehow, very quickly, I found myself telling her that she's not supposed to live very long.

Then she told me that she has four boys and two girls...... and that she lost one of her girls, very suddenly, to an illness. She said that her only remaining girl just recently got married, and what a sweet day it was.

Knowing that I would also be in that position one day, going to Sarah's wedding, I felt an instant connection with her. And there it was! There was light I was looking for! She had been through it. She seemed ok. She wasn't swallowed up in pain. And she was even helping me.

It won't be easy. I am sure it was hard work for her to keep her light. But I know that if I put in the work, I can be okay too :-)

So there it is. There was my answer to prayer. I'm so grateful.

 4th of July Baby

She's been especially loving to hug her stuffed animals lately. I didn't just place these. She actually squeezes and kisses them!

Pics from today

Michael's set up lol

                       Mama and Sophie

 This is my favorite. Max was pretending there were superheroes in his car and he was taking them to scare the seizures away from Sophie ❤❤❤❤❤ "come on guys" he would say ..."lets go scare those seizures far far away from Sophie!"