This Time a Year Ago

I expected when Sophia's birthday rolled around I might feel some depression as I remembered this time last year. I anticipated and made room for some possibly sad feelings. So I was surprised when I felt only a few fleeting ones.

I do remember but I don't feel it the same.  This time a year ago we were getting used to a totally new and unexpected life. We were all grieving the loss of a healthy baby sister. I remember the sad little thoughts. It seemed every simple decision had a very heavy connotation. I remember, but it doesn't hurt anymore like it did.

I remember buying Butt Paste for example.  I remember wondering if I should get the big tub or the smaller tube. I made a conscious decision to be optimistic and got the tub. But there was an an underlying pang of wonder. Would we need the whole thing? Well guess what?! We just ran out this morning!!!

Everything has been going so well. We are all doing well and so is Sophia. Life is different than expected, but happy. There is joy in our journey.

https://youtu.be/RiZ3aZQyqx4
(or you tube Sophia Jane-Marie Rasberries)

Writing helps me process my emotions. I hope it's helped people out there who have also been affected by our situation.  I don't feel the need process daily anymore so I will plan to post every Sunday to keep everyone updated ;-) Thank you so much to my kind friends and family who read my blog. I have been so touched by it.

The PCH community ended up losing 3 angel baby's this week. It's a reminder to soak in Sophia every day. I held her a little tighter and spent some extra time kissing her face this week.

Fly high little dragonflies...

Signing off until next Sunday. See you all next week!