On the subject of therapy

     I don't know that any parent in our situation, when asked how they are doing, would say "life is great!" or "we're doing awesome!". It's not... and we are struggling. Every parent in our situation is. My support group would agree. We all have to try really hard every day. Like mentally treading water, all the time. And I'd be lying if I said that there weren't some days, where I didn't try at all. There have been days like that. Where I've given in. I'm not proud. I'm always trying to do better though.
     So. If my back is stressed I see a chiropractor, my teeth hurt a dentist, illness the doctor, etc. There's nothing wrong with going to see somebody who knows more about what you're dealing with than you do. I like getting advice. I'm not omniscient and I like getting solutions to problems. It makes life better.
     Personally I've been going to therapy on, and off, for 9 years (don't judge ha! ... I've been through a lot 😏.) When I first started, I was always saying "my therapist says this" and "my therapist that". I was living by advice and learning through therapy. It carried me through some very difficult times.
     Unfortunately those times look like a day at the beach now days :-( Not trying to be melodramatic, it's just true. So now that we have respite we're both going to be going back regularly. I might occasionally reference that I (or we) have been.
     At home Jason and I are often interrupted by emergency's. I don't know if this will make any sense, but it feels like my brain is being wired, to not be able to focus. If things with Sophia are calm for too long, my mind starts to jump. I can't relax. I wonder if you can become a.d.d. by experience. I should ask about that-haha.
     Anyways soon I'm going to be trying something called EMDR. I hope it can help my thoughts stay present, as well as get rid of triggers from past threats that no longer threaten me.
     I need all the "healthy" space I can get "up there" bc.....well..... I will be continuing to go through trauma. It's a relatively new technique so I'll post on my blog if it helps me. I'm super grateful to a wonderful nurse (medically complex children's waiver for providing her), and great babysitters for making this possible ;-)
     Lastly, if anyone reading this is thinking about therapy, forget the stigma just do it! A little piece of advice I always give though.....therapists are like chiropractors. A good one can heal you. A bad one will make your injuries worse. But they will all claim to be good, so pay attention to the results, and especially your gut! ;-) You'll be better for it! Going to therapy doesn't make anything more wrong with you than the next guy. In fact you'll probably be better off! ;-)

On a different and funny note, this video of Max will surely make you laugh! That kid is always good medicine ;-)

https://youtu.be/LcwpOxq6AuQ