"Ever Since I found out she was a girl I thanked God every day that I was given everything I ever wanted. I figured I deserved it because of what I've already been through in life. This was my consolation. This was the bright side of my trials. After she was diagnosed I immediately felt stupid for being so grateful. And then one morning as we were driving to the hospital I had a paradigm shift. This can still be the bright side to my trials. It takes a little faith to see it that way, but if I really believe what I believe then God DID give me everything I ever wanted. I begged him for a girl. He gave her to me. And I DO get to keep her. And I WILL get to raise her one day. I DO believe I'll get to do everything I wanted. I'll get to nurse her. And dress her. And throw her birthday parties. And in a much better world than this. We will have it all. Sophie and I. And all of us. Jason says when we get to the other side our family will be so perfect we will have more gratitude that we chose it to be this way. I believe him."
"The Girls"
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